I used to compose at the piano when I was younger. When I got married and had children, it was diminished. Then, when I lost house, wife, child 1, 2, then 3 (the last), it was really hard. After suffering all that, I just don't seem to have the heart to play. Does anybody have any tips on how to move past great loss. I should try to channel it into my music, but when I try, it just doesn't seem to click.
Most helpful would be if anybody has had a heart-injury (solar-plexus blow) knock them off-track, and you can tell me your story of how you got back on track. This is my first time posting here. Hopefully, this is not off-topic. Thanks, all.
P.S. -- My style is "contrapuntal melody", syncopation, both baby grand upright, and electronic piano, and synth, and voice, and b-flat cornet. When I proposed to my (x-wife now), I used a four-part barber-shop quartet of myself I made on a 4-track as a background tape, and proposed in front of the entire church. Gave her hives, and she loved it.