I have been fighting with this for sometimes and I am afraid I will have to give up. I don't know exactly what it is but when I play at home, I can perfectly and smoothly play any piece I know from the beginning to end without any major mistakes, providing all required phrasing, articulation, dynamics. I can remember all notes without hesitation.
When only I have to play in front of someone, even people I know who I am 100% certain would not judge me, so would not my teacher, I turn into something like badly prepared student, forgetting notes, playing only with half skills I could normally present etc. yesterday, I couldn't start a piece I know by heart. There were like three attempts and I almost gave up. Eventually, I got through quite well but it scares me that there is something wrong.
As last option, I would like to ask any of you who has similar problem like me. What should I do to manage it and cope with the performance fright? If you have managed to overcome it, what kind of things helped you to beat it? Have you eventually started to enjoy playing in front of friends, colleagues etc.?
This is truly killing me,honestly, I enjoy playing at home but I wish I could some day show how I could improve. And because the fright I feel, it seems something is being taken away from me, all the pleasure I hold when playing the instrument is fading. I even consider meeting with sort of professional to perhaps understand the problem.