So my friend has been given a few months to live. She is incredibly strong and makes me feel like a coward for not having courage to do things that have interested me , but my fear of failure always held me back. Yet here she is facing her death without a hint of fear. So we are putting together a celebration of life for her. People will be Singing, bands will be playing, speakers , family members sharing stories. So in an attempt to change my outlook I thought I would use this as an opportunity to sing a song to her. To show her that she has inspired me to start facing my fears in life. The problem is I've never sung a note my life. 44 years ago, I weaseled out of a school play that involved singing. I could not deal with attention of any sort. I was physically and sexually abused a few years prior and I couldn't handle any sort of attention. I just wanted to hide and not be noticed by anyone. After all these years I can remember the teacher in charge saying " it's too bad you refuse to take part. You have one of the best voices participatin " Those words stuck with me until now. I feel like I sound terrible and can barely hit a note Yet I downloaded one of those phone apps that gets you to hit notes a d sustain them. I was quite surprised to hit some very high notes for a man of 50 years (A3) it has given me hope with some help it may be possible to actually sing and not embarrass myself. My question Is or my questions are do those apps really work ? Where should I go to get real help that won't put me in a situatio to feel unworthy or not good enough. Any techniques to improve quickly? Basically anything you can tell me to quietly achieve my goal without putting myself in situations where I will be laughed at. I struggle dearly with this. Im on 2 types of anti depressants / anti anxiety meds Just going to get grocery is a task not looked at with anticipation. I know you're thinking this dude wants to go on stage and preform when he can barely go buy groceries? Yes and I've never sang a song. I'm fairly certain my voice sounds like a bag of pots and pans clanging together. The song I have chosen is no campfire song either it's John Legend-All of me. I know right nothing like starting off easy.i would love to hear something other than "you're nuts" Like my friends have said. Which is actually giving me a bit more determination , as if that were possible
Hope to hear from you soon Regards the vocal newb without a clue Mig