I've started vocal lessons and am trying to learn to sing, but I've come across a very difficult situation which makes me want to quit, as it makes me change myself completely, although I understand that I absolutely agree with what my teacher is telling me.
I do the exercises and train my vocal almost every day, but the thing that bothers me most is not being shy of doing something silly or awkward, being open and artistic.
I am a rather calm person with not much of me to entertain in life. I can do some stuff but not all of it. Today my teacher wanted me to imaging a rope and try to pull it with my both hands in turn while singing at the same time. I couldn't do it. Firstly, it looks really silly and strange. Secondly, why must I do such a silly and awkward thing? And third thing is, what would people think of me had I done something similar on stage?
I know that practically she is right - my psychological barriers prevent me from doing it, I block myself at that level.
I surely know that people like Phil Collins or Peter Gabriel did really silly and stupid stuff on stage and it was always embarrassing for me, but me, no. I just can't step over myself, although I realize I should.
What can help me? How does one do it in music? Who had such problems? Is it okay to not be able to do such things?